A day that was supposed to be different
Today was supposed to be a day that would be a celebration and joyful.
We brought my horse trailer to where the new house is.
That was supposed to mean that Hawkeye was coming home where we could all live together.
It’s something we had been plotting for years.
That was the best laid plans but instead the trailer was empty.
I knew this day was going to be devastating.
I knew I couldn’t do it alone.
I knew there would be lots of tears.
And fortunately, I didn’t have to do today alone. My husband, our dog Leo and the amazing Gabriela Flores helped me every step of the day today. I’m so grateful for them.
And then Gabby gave me the amazing gift of sharing the afternoon with her horses in the sunshine. It was salve for the soul 
Greif is not linear and can show up in many ways so if you find yourself feeling a wave of it, be so gentle with yourself and know that you might not always feel graceful as you navigate all the feelings.
